What I feel in February...

Early February

February came to me as a sheer, shy girl. I think this kind of feeling reflects my sentimental side. I look forward to seeing a fresh, green spring soon. My projects, such as writing, crafting, and illustrating, make me happy because there is passion and hope. Sometimes I found myself like a sheer girl, existing in some space of the mind. Sometimes I find myself like a philosopher. Sometimes a child and an old lady, etc. How fun it is in my wonderland. 

Recently, I knew what was wrong with my health. Luckily, I found out how I could improve my health regarding blood circulation. I keep trying to put my efforts into improving my health in my daily routine. ‘Better late than never.’

The pictures below reflect some part of the feminine side of me in front of the door of the spring. I am happy with every project. 

Tole Painting                                                                                                    

I wanted to decorate an empty wall. So, I painted and assembled the pieces of wood. This craft is called Tole-painting. The design of the wood shape-'girly angel' is not from me. But someday, I want to design animal shapes and cute characters with pieces of wood. 

Crafts and Books

A Photo with two types of books and a booklet I wrote, edited and made as a sample. Making books in various sizes and layouts was interesting, and I learned about book publishing from the process. I still need to work out how to improve better quality of the books. I want to share the stories in my books someday. Dolls I created, and a stool cover I hand-sew with pieces of fabric.

The design on the pouch with a thermoelectric printer and various crafts

I designed a girlish theme for the zipper pouch. A girlish theme is my sentiment for this February. The local store printed the design with a thermal transfer printer. It was just a try. But I prefer the type of design filled all on an item and digitally printed; next time, I will try it out differently in the artsy theme. In the photo, a crochet heart charm and a basket, a cute doll and a sewing kit, and a red polka dot cushion I made.

Mid-February

However, it could be life as it is that I had to face a gray cloud in my path in the mid of February. My mom stumbled down into the parking lot of the mall. Unfortunately, her hip joint was fractured; she was carried to the hospital by ambulance at the mall. When I received a phone call from my mom, I felt a gray cloud covering my mind. I was surprised and even afraid of the unexpected situation. She had surgery upon ‘hip joint replacement.’ Now she stays at home after being hospitalized for seven days. She is ready to receive professional physical therapy. I prepare nutritious meal plans and help her with rehabilitation exercises and emotions since it takes time for her to walk normally. I pray that my mom can walk freely without any pain soon. I do and will do my best for my mom’s recovery.

The flowers below are for my mom. Various Flowers are delivered to my mom every month. My mom likes flowers. I hope beautiful flowers make my mom pleased and my flower arrangement is getting better. I wish she keeps hope and patience to be recovered and walk freely.

"Ranunculaceae (Buttercup) and Genista Pilosa (Yellow Spreader) and Ruscus Hypophyllum"  

Orchid

Late February

I see life as two-sided. Life carries good and bad things in balance; sometimes, it could be like riding a seesaw. When I see my mom get older and more vulnerable, I think about my elderly life in the future. I ask myself whether I am ready to face what will come. I would ask myself, “Are you ready to treat the matter and unexpected situations wisely and strongly? And are you ready to prepare for your elderly life?” I saw many patients in a hospital and unexpected accidents, hindering life from going smoothly. So wise preparations for the unexpected should be required financially, physically, and mentally. Cloud and sunshine coexist in life. I remind myself that the sun still exists and shines after a gray cloud flows away. I should not be afraid of seeing a gray cloud in life. I need to strengthen myself while I walk on the path of life.

The last image reflects a yearning for wisdom and strength to live life while looking at the sky at dawn.